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Jan 31, 2015
Saturday, January 31, 2015 | 0 comments
"No one can make you feel inferior
without your consent." - Eleanor Roosevelt
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There was an experiment done, where there were 3 beakers of water left out side by side, and every day, the researcher would spend a minute with each of the beakers every day for a month (or was it a week?). For the first one, he spoke words of kindness - thank yous and I love yous; the second, he cursed and yelled at. The third was left aside, used as a constant.
At the end of the month, the water in the first beaker was clear, cleaner even; the one in the second beaker had visible particles of dusts and dirt; the third, remained almost the same, but was no where as clean as the one in the first beaker.
- My balance for humility and confident is one of those things that I can't seem to grasp well. I have always been in a position tending a little too much towards the humility side of the scale, but lately, it tipped a little too far for comfort. I haven't been speaking kindly to myself. Frankly, I haven't been consistently kind about anything. And it feels horrible. It has been way too long a time since I last did a proper reflection, and because of that I have strayed too far from my core. In all bad there is good, and so I am thankful this yucky feeling is a wonderfully timely wake up call. - I allowed self-pity to blind me from seeing that all that I have are blessings and beyond. I allowed my ego and vanity to compare myself with others, when I should have known better that greed bears no good fruit. I compromised love and light for discontentment and thanklessness. These are my mistakes, and I am sorry. For all that I have spoken ill of, I am sorry and I love you. My criticisms and disparaging on myself have caused tough words to be unjustly placed upon you, in thoughts or in words. I am sorry. "Maktub" is Arabic, meaning "It is written". For all that I am, I am; it is what it is for a reason. I may not know, but I choose to trust. No promises that it'll never happen again, but I will be watchful and reasonable heh. Counting blessings always ♥ (: - Thank you for always reading my messy thoughts. Love you xx (: |
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Daphne. Sagittarius. 14th December 93.