daphiexn
Mistakes is what that made you you now.
May 1, 2012 Tuesday, May 01, 2012 | 0 comments

Ohai :) 

Life has been a bit hectic lately. Mock exams this Thursday and I'm only half done with my studies. Urgh.
On a brighter note, I do have another day to study, so I'm hoping with my fingers crossed I'll be done by then hahaha. Cause if I don't I'm doomed LOL. 
I know it's only mock exams la, but I don't wannaaa :(

Oh and my hair is officially long! I know la it didn't grow overnight suddenly so long la, just that I never realized it was THAT long. Officially boob length wtf. :D This is the longest hair I've ever had! So it's worth this long rant about my officially-long-enough-to-be-called-long-hair hair. :D 

And I finally got myself Nicholas Sparks books! AND The Book Of Tomorrow by Cecelia Ahern too! :D   It's not with me yet la BUT it's considered mine already so I'm still super happy even tho I cannot start reading anything until my mock ends wtf. I'm still so happy la can? Books make me happy HEH 

I don't even know what I'm blogging about hahahahha I just felt like blogging wtf. 
I promise I'll blog about better things when I have the time kay? 
Kthanksloveyoubye :D


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HAHAHA MEGA WINNING MOTIVATION!
I HAVE THE BEST BABI FRIENDS EVERRR (Y)
Whatsapp makes life so much better :D

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You'll never know how much I can love.
Apr 14, 2012 Saturday, April 14, 2012 | 0 comments

Current cover photo :)

Seriously, I don't understand why people like being mean. I especially loathe those who takes "being honest" as an excuse. I find them very, very rude. Bitch please, being straight forward is one thing, being mean is another. Even the worst things can be said in nice ways.
One of the worst people are the ones who are mean even to their spouse. Like, dafaq? It's one thing to say things out of concern and to, just, say it, cause you can or whatever. Take for example, to remind them that they have a slight weight problem is a very kind thought, only if you're concerned of their health. If you say mean things because you refuse to bare the "shame" that your other half being less pleasant looking or, rather in your words, fat and ugly, then shame on you. 
And it's not only a guy problem. I know girls who constantly compare their boyfriends' body to Channing Tatum when they watched The Vow, expecting their boyfs to start hitting the gym and get the bod of a surfer. 
Now, I know I'm in no position to talk about how a relationship should work, but try to be a bit considerate of one's feelings. I know too many who's confidence went down the drain when they received negative comments on their body from someone they love. I know some who starved, diet, and went all I-hate-myself. I hate seeing that. 
And to think that you're just "being honest" and "someone had to tell her". You're just being bloody irresponsible. 
And no, "no offence" does not help. 

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Shit, why am I angry of a fictional character? 

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Apr 12, 2012 Thursday, April 12, 2012 | 0 comments


They say: Time will cure. 
But how much longer will it have to take? 
I've said that I'm done and through so many times, even I don't believe myself anymore.

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And I won't even allow myself to blog how I feel.

I hate being like this. I'm not supposed to be like this.
Oh, shit me, no where is safe on the internet.

Maybe when I die, and someone finds my diary, 
maybe that day, you'll know.

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This is probably one of the most bimbo post ever.
Apr 3, 2012 Tuesday, April 03, 2012 | 5 comments

If I'm being honest, I am probably one of the shallowest person I know. 
My confidence level is mainly based on how I look: my weight, how I dress, and most out of all, contact lenses. If you have read my post some time ago, you'd get a vague idea of how much contact lenses mean to me.


Contact lenses are meant to make things more convenient. I started of using them because of gym class. And a bloody pimple that grew on my nose-bridge wtf. Until then, it wasn't that bad. Then I got hold of colored contact lenses with pupil-enlarging effect. And ever since, I couldn't leave house without those lenses. 
And it was life-changing, in a negative way. I haven't been swimming for a very long time  'cause I couldn't bare the thought of not wearing the contact lenses. There was this once where I swam with the contact lenses on, and the chlorine stung so badly. But I opt to bare with the pain that to take it off. 
I skipped classes when I had eye infections or when my eyes just wouldn't cooperate with the lenses. 
Then it came to one point where I avoid mirrors when I have my specs on. Yes that bad.


I credited the contact lenses for all the flattering compliments people give. (Well, what more can you  think of when the first thing most people tell you is that you have big eyes that make you look so animated?) I avoided sleepovers because I didn't want people to see how I look like without contact lenses. I was afraid that people might feel cheated.
My dependence on the contact lenses, I now realize, was even part of the reasons I never was ready for a relationship. I was convinced that people love me (or rather, say they love me) because of those contact lenses. Those huge pupils. Not me. 
And I'm not the only one who's like this. I know of some people who are, too, as depended of the big-eye lenses as I am. I know there are many who can relate to this situation, being so depended on something you wouldn't allow yourself to leave house without. Let it be your mascara, your eye-liner, grey contact lenses, or your iPhone wtf.


I don't want to live like that. I know, you're probably reading this post like "Meh, what the hell, bimbo maximum" but that's how I really feel. I don't want to be trapped in by a pair of contact lens. 
To me, those contact lenses are like.. your iPhone. it's something you're so dependent on you feel insecure without it. And please, don't tell me iPhone is an essential need. You can blardy well survive with a 3310 too. But if given a choice, you wouldn't. 


I still love those color contact lenses, and I still prefer those lovely lenses. 
But for now, bear with me. 
I need to learn to stop being ashamed of my real eyes, of my blessed natural feature. 
How do I expect anyone else to accept me if I can't even accept myself? 


So if you find my pictures different, you know why. :)


For now, 
This is the face you'll need to get used to. :) 

And, I'd like to thank this awesome person who told me
"Different doesn't mean ugly, it just means different." 
Thank you. :)

This shall be a start to a new beginning.

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Rant mode: ONZ
Mar 28, 2012 Wednesday, March 28, 2012 | 6 comments

I don't understand people who are in a relationship and call their partner ugly and mean it
Like seriously. Who in the right mind calls their girlfriend as "the one with crooked teeth" or "the one with lazy eyes"? And to say that with a disgusted face? Really? I mean, if you said that with a more positive body language, I'd try to understand. God knows, people have all sorts of fetish. I know of some guys who finds girls with cellulite-y thighs sexy wtf. ("Womanly curvaceous", they call it. But that's not my point.) But even when they call their girlfriend "fat ass", they say it with a smile, or just, you know, not disgusted. We can tell that they're just teasing.
Okay, so maybe sometimes it doesn't work that way. You have to admit - guys are not as sensitive with words as compared to girls, and girls are that bit too sensitive when it comes to interpreting words, then you get the big hoo-ha drama where I'd just watch and prepare popcorns wtf. 
But who the hell would describe their girlfriend with words like that. And when I say describe, I mean oh-you-haven't-met-my-girlfriend-let-me-describe-her kind of describe. 
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Hello, sir? 
In case you haven't noticed, your let-me-describe pretty much means that you're bloody making a first impression for her. You don't go "oh you haven't meet my girlfriend? Oh ya, she's the one with crooked, jutting-out teeth" wtf. 

Like dafaq dude? You might as well have just told me that she has body odor and stinking breath wtf.  There are so many other qualities you can talk about. Like what course she is in, what club she participates in, or like, how about her Facebook name? wtf. OR if you have to, you could have used a better term. "not too perfect teeth" sounds way better than "crooked and jutted out" wtf. 
Not that I have anything against people with crooked teeth, body odor or stinking breath.  But it's not a first impression anyone would want, even if it's true. 

AND YOU'RE HER BLOODY BOYFRIEND. You're supposed to be the one standing up to defend her when she's being joked about her imperfections, not the one highlighting them. 
Being in a relationship should be good for both the partners. Both should bring out the best out of each other. Being in a relationship should mean that two individuals who are capable of being independent, opt to be for, and with, each other. In my opinion, anyway.

Ugh. I don't get couples like this.

I don't even know what this post is about. I just. Had to get this out my chest. 

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Bitch, please.
Jan 14, 2012 Saturday, January 14, 2012 | 3 comments

Instangram makes everyone look prettier :P 

People who actually have me on Facebook would know that every now and then, I'd post a picture of me with a quote that has totally nothing to do with the picture as the caption wtf. 
But apparently, some people have a problem with this. 

For the people who didn't, now you know wtf. And I swear, most of my caption-quotes and statuses are original. It'd be cited otherwise. But even the ones that requires citations are the ones that rarely heard and are, in my opinion, beautifully written. So no, no repetition of quotes. And no, rarely love quotes. 

Just to clarify, I post the quotes cause I personally love quote. I use them as descriptions cause, lol, it's my way of "filing" the quotes I love. I'm not a fan of pencils and notebooks so don't suggest me to write it down instead. And any alternative suggestions you can keep it to yourself cause I like my way of keeping my quotes thankyouverymuch. 

I treat my facebook as a diary-somewhat. It's MY facebook after all. So if you're not happy about my pictures appearing on your news feed, kindly "Hide stories from Daphne Poh" or , if you like, unfriend me. Like I'd care. 

So yes, I'm going to continue posting macam-yes camwhore pictures of myself with quotes as captions. Got a problem with that? Good. 


P.S. Yes, it is PMS. 

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For the first time
Dec 26, 2011 Monday, December 26, 2011 | 5 comments


And so. I went Uni scouting with ze parents last Saturday. Totally last minute plan lol. Initial plan was to enroll into university next year September. The sudden change of plans was... a blur. LOL I still haven't made out why I suddenly decided that I want to start classes earlier. Probably due to my multi-fail attempts in looking for jobs wtf.


Anyway, that's all besides the point. Main point is, HOW COME DEGREE COURSE ALL SO EXPENSIVE ONE? Like seriously, the cheapest Business degree course I could find summed up to a RM69k for a 3 year course, excluding the books. 


Okay la, to be fair, idk what public universities offer cause I cannot enter. Cause no SPM wtf. (I was an O-level student. Long ass story. Not going there.) But come on la, 69k? That's one year 23k leh. 2k per month fml. EDUCATION, Y U NO CHEAP? #yunoguy.jpg


And somemore sebagai a student (yang malas wtf), I has zero salary. Zero. Kosong. Bulat. 
Pocket money is not salary okay. Pocket money also considered as education expenses wtf.
So you see la, it's basically 69k output and kosong input. If I have a bank account solely on how much my life is worth, I'd have a -69k extra now. 


It doesn't really make sense to me lor. It's like investing 69k in to a cert to get you a job.
But nowadays, degree cert also cannot get a job with good pay la wtf. So it's lousy investment.
Okay la, let's pretend we're mega smart people, no need to repeat any papers and no change in the exchange rate (God bless us, no inflation happen in the next 3 years please), starting salary of a business degree graduate is about RM2.5k if you're very lucky. 


So, RM2.5k. Let's say we still stay with our parents. Contrasting off all the, petrol/parking/eat/ktv/shopping/yang lain-lain, the balance of your salary should be like, RM1.1? That is if you stay with parents, don't club/smoke/shisha/arcade/pool/etc and eat within RM7 a meal. Not easy la. Some social expenses are inevitable. :/


So let's take it as RM1.1k la (which is already super hard to achieve) It's going to take you about 67 months to get back your university tuition fees. 67 months is bloody 5 and a half years. Okay, even with an increase in salary, the best you can do is 4 years 9 months. Unless you win ToTo and 4D wtf.


SO. For the next 8 years, your income/output contrasts to zero. Yes. KOSONG. Like wtf, by that time I'd be 27 already! Even though it'll feel like, macam yes jiang, know how to earn money already. Zhang da liao, bangga sikit. Padahal, you haven't earn anything. Your life net worth still kosong cause everything earned is only enough to cover back what you invested wtf.


What sort of a investment is this? Takes 5 years to get your capital back. And this is IF you are lucky. If, dai gat lai si *touchwood*, that time got recession, not enough jobs how? And the risk term is 5 years! All Economic students know that the business cycle, 5 years confirm got recession one. 


In short, we kind of, like, pay to earn money. It's indirectly exactly like all the internet scheme only. Those "Pay to join membership to earn money from home!" kind of thing. wtf


Haih. But *shrugs* bo bian la, it's a do or die thing. If you don't have cert, CONFIRM no job. That's even worse. :/


[edit] Disclaimer: Okay maybe starting salary not accurate cause, idk, maybe my cousin report lower/higher to avoid the need to belanja makan or what wtf.


Oh, and by the way, I didn't take the RM69k course :3 HEHE 
BUT STILL, I have my point about feeling cheated right?! 


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ANYWAY, I'm officially now an ACCA student! ;D 
Classes start on Jan 3rd! And I'm super excited over it! HOHO. :D


I got a good feeling for next year la. It's going to be a fresh start cause not many people I know are going there. :)


#currentaddiction
Explains the title ;P



Merry belated Christmas! ;D

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#foreveralone.jpg
Dec 22, 2011 Thursday, December 22, 2011 | 4 comments

And this is how I roll.

See? This is why you must always have an extra picture or two of yourself in a drafted blog post. So wherever you go, you can blog. lol.


Came over Taylor's to get my official result slip and settle a couple of things. And because we're gathering at ECA to head over Ian's house later, I stayed over at ECA. Alone. 
Which explains the title. LOL

Haih, ECA is so not ECA without the TDC-ians la! STUDIO, Y U NO RENOVATE EARLIER! >:O
I've been here since 12.30 pm. That makes it a good 3 hours of reading. :)
And of course sleeping lol wtf.

I don't even know why I decided to leave house so early. Maybe my mom's right. I just can't stick my arse at home. Have to go out. LOL.

But it's not like I have better things to do at home anyway. I'd end up here - online I mean.

Anyway! I'm finally doing SOMETHING about my driving! Went for the 6 hour listening (slept for a good 3hours wtf). I'm starting lessons on 1st Jan! :D What a way to start 2012 right?

Shoutout to the people living in Puchong. DO NOT get on the road on 1st and 2nd Jan. LOL You should really see me drive the virtual driving games. You'd probably freak out good. LOL

Oh kay! Alex is about to come over! No longer #foreveralone!
HAHA toodles! :)


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